Who am I?

Hello everyone

I don’t usually use the blog much now-a-days. Occasionally I post on twitter. It’s very very rare I login to facebook. This is a public blog. Anyone, from anywhere at anytime can access this. I can put anything I want here, and there is nobody blacklisted from this site. Every blog entry that I post is linked in a tweet with “publicize”. People from the ubuntuforums, aWebForumThatIsNotToBeMentioned, and OMGCheesecake can freely view this (I’m betting I’ll see a post about this on the latter forum |3).

The point of me posting this is my overall outlook on the world, my goals, my opinions, in essence, me. I’m going to let out all of my secrets. Right here, right now. I think it’s important to. Everybody has secrets they don’t want to tell anyone. These are no different.

Firstly, a little history about me. Just a few years back, I was someone who would disregard everything that wasn’t right in front of me, that I deemed useless. I had friends, but they were more like acquaintances, I just said “Hi” to them from time to time. Last year in my Spanish class, I had failed. I deemed it a useless language that I’d never use, and so I put no effort into learning it. The same year I had gotten alphabet grades, as in grades in the order of the Latin alphabet. A, B, C, and D for my classes, showing clearly how I treated classes. I had a 2.0 GPA average. I was not going anywhere, I knew the field I wanted to go into, which was computer science. I wanted to be a software engineer/programmer. I love technology and how it works, it’s important that everything works together as it should. This year, I’m working extra hard to ensure I get everything done and that I get all ‘A’s and so far it’s working. This year, I’m far kinder and considerate to people, I now use human logic, a term I coined a little bit back. Every year I look back on my previous mistakes, I think things like “Why did I do that?”, “I need to improve” and “My time is running out, I mustn’t mess this up”. I consider my present self “aware”, aware in the sense that I think things through and do not just drift through everything as if it does not exist. Thinking through that, I’m never truely aware, not until I can go through a year and still consider my self a year earlier “aware” as well. I don’t know if I explained that right, but I’m very indecisive from year to year. My opinions change, my views on the world change, on society, on politics, everything.

What changed from last year that makes me different? More history. Around a year back, I was looking into minecraft servers. For a while, I hosted my own server, later my brother’s. It was called the “ubergamer’s” server, which was the name of my brother’s steam group that his friends were in. At the time, I had a poor internet connection, yet somehow managed to host 15 people at a time at 2gb of ram, and a mere 1mB up. On that server, I met a future administrator, a kind person who would turn out to be a scapegoat for the server’s problems. Around a month after the server shut down due to it not being manageable anymore, before it shut down, he added me on Skype. Later he and I became good friends, he and I would talk on skype for maybe 2 minutes to hours on end about life and things, we agreed with each other, we shared our problems with each other, no matter how personal. I told him about my little pony, and from them on he was also a brony (Yes I’m a brony and proud of it). He joined a website called everypony, joined their radio livestream. Through thick and thin we stayed friends where his others had left him. I became more sensitive to others’ feelings. I finally starting thinking for others, and things that are more important. I also, up until that point considered myself an asexual. A statement I partially retract now.

About that too. I often visit a website called “wildcritters.ws”. It’s an image board focusing on “critters”, cute, anthropomorphic, small creatures. It has a lot of safe art, but also a lot of art which is considered explicit, for this reason, it is restricted to viewers at or over the age of 18 for most countries. I joined their Skype chat, whilst unofficial is very very friendly. They have multiple channels I learnt, The main room, the General Chat, the “Toy Room”, and the “Lisa” room. The most active is the main room, I chat there nearly every day about life and such, everybody is so friendly. I had met someone there, and he and I had an RP session. Afterwards, I felt something that I never had felt previously, I had felt the emotion of “love”. Previously emotionless before, I had felt an attraction between me and another guy. I had suspected this, before, but quickly brushed it off. I have two sides to my personality. My logical side, the reason for me getting high honours, and my “other” side, the emotional and admittedly “horny” side. I had visited wildcritters and similar websites for years, hid it from everyone I knew in real life and told everyone that I was an asexual. Everyone bought it, as did I at the time I had. This message along with all of my thoughts, opinions and everything else will be linked to twitter (as mentioned previously), my father is following me, and will see this. I shouldn’t keep secrets, so instead of me telling him, he can read what I have to say here. It’s a bit cowardly I’ll admit, but I simply cannot go through with telling him to his face, if he confronts me, I will tell him everything about this, despite the punishments that will likely follow. I need to be honest, I want all my friends to know how I feel, and my opinions that go with it. This is as close to a “secret life” as I have.

If you do not know what an RP session is. I will explain. RP stands for “Role Play”. Two or more people will chat, playing certain rolls, pretending to do something. They can range from an adventure like fighting a dragon, to a sexual rollplay. I’ll say it straight out, I’ve done much more of the latter than the former. Everyone’s just so nice, it’s something I look forward to on a weekly basis. The “Toy Room” channel I mentioned earlier, it’s a room for RP, anyone may be invited, so as they are a friend of the channel’s creator. I’ve met a few people and RP’d for a while with. It’s always fun. I’m known as “catsin”, I’m a blue cat. He’s what we call a “fursona”, a reflection of yourself in animal form. They are always human like in personality. It’s a strange world, and I’m part of a subculture called “furry”. I’ve been this for a while, I’m sorry to whomever doesn’t know this and may be disturbed in the slightest bit by it. This is who I am, it’s what I like. To whomever know me, may you be my father, my mother, my brother, or a friend, please, feel free to talk me about this. I will answer every question to you, even if it may be uncomfortable for me to speak about, however, if you don’t accept who I am, you are unfit to be close to me, if you try to block my access to aforementioned sites, I will find a way around it. I will not let my word be censored, nor who I am. I am dragos240, I am catsin, I am me.

- Dragos(Catsin)

Polyphasic attempt: Freeman, Day 0

Hello all!

I’m starting again. I can’t stand nights where I have more to do. I want to go uberman so badly, but my inflexible schedule denies me of that. I’m gonna try my best here.

A little about Freeman. Freeman is ze’s man’d name for SPAMAYL (He felt that all schedules should end in -man). SPAMAYL is a crude acronym for: Sleep Polypasically As Much As You Like. It’s not really what I like to call a “trusted” schedule, one that’s been tried many times, again and again. Many people distrust freeman because of the way it works. It’s not static like other schedules.

I’ll take my first nap soon, which will mark the official start of this trial with sleep. Every 24 hours after that nap, I’ll make a post that denotes the end of the “day” and update you all on how it went. I’ve gained a bit more willpower, hopefully that’ll help me. Even if I fail. I always have to say that it’s so fun doing it. Oh, and I’m getting a zeo soon! Now we’ll be able to see what polyphasic sleep looks like. How exciting!

Peace.

America. The world’s freest and best country?

Hello!

If you’ve never read my blog before, welcome. I’m an American, I have lived in a small town in Massachusetts my entire life. This post is essentially a rank backed up with facts about what people tend to believe: That America is the “Freest and best country in the world”. I will say this outright. It absolutely isn’t.

The United states is a country that lies in the North American continent and takes up most of that area. It was declared a free country in 1776 and recognized as one in 1783.

Through the years, much of the world has looked at us an an example, many people immigrate here for a better life, better education, amongst other things. We are also a very nationalistic nation. We wave flags outside our doorstep, and there’s one everywhere you look. In France, a French flag denotes a post office or other govt. building. This is really only an example of what we do here. We wear American themed hats, have bumper stickers that express our positive feelings towards our nation.

You may love this country, you may hate it, or you could simply be neutral about it. Not all of you reading this may be American, you could be from anywhere, reading this very post. Me, I dislike this country. But who cares about my opinion eh? Lets get down to more facts, because lets be honest, reading a blog post about an American who dislikes his country and listing all the reasons why is boring and makes the poster look like an uneducated man who lives in a hole.

I’m going to compare the country I’m living in to other countries around the globe in many areas: Education, Happiness, Culture, and General Stability.

Education:
Literacy subsection:

In my book, literacy is very important. It also makes a big impact when comparing countries. If you’re illiterate, chances are, you won’t live a great life until you learn to read, you are NOT reading this post, and you may be living on the street.

So let’s look at America’s super high ranking in literacy!
Oh, would you look here, we’re ranked 45th. Well, gee, that’s depressing. We have a 99.0% literacy rate when rounded to the tenth decimal place. So just a little under 99%. Overall, that’s good. Here, kids get mandated education, which goes from Kindergarten to 12th grade. Powered by tax money. I see nothing really bad there. A 99% literacy rate is pretty good in my book.
Source: http://hdr.undp.org/en/media/HDR_2009_EN_Complete.pdf

Now how about General scores of reading, math, and science?:
Well, according to the below article. In reading, we’re 14th. Not bad right? Okay, how about math? Nothing America couldn’t conquer, right? We’re 25th. Oh, well at least we aren’t dead last. And finally science. We’re 17th. So, not the best, but not the worst.
Source: http://www.guardian.co.uk/news/datablog/2010/dec/07/world-education-rankings-maths-science-reading

I hope, at the very least, that nationalistic hat that some of you wear is taken off now.

So what’s next? That would be….

Happiness:

Being a free country, where one can do anything he or she wants; we obviously would rank near first in happiness.

Well, America is ranked at 114 in 2009, according to the HPI or ‘Happy Planet Index’. You can find that in the source. There are many factors that go into the HPI, It’s explained here: http://www.happyplanetindex.org/learn/calculating/ .

Source: http://www.happyplanetindex.org/public-data/files/happy-planet-index-2-0.pdf

Culture:
When I think of “America”, my thoughts are usually a very different view than most, so I won’t go into that. But generally when we think of America’s culture, we think of movie stars and such. The whole world seems to love it too. But culturally, what’s unique to America?

Well, most people would agree here. America is a melting pot of many different people with different backgrounds and roots from all over the world. You’ll find a different feel to wherever you go here. But aside from daily rituals and a few holidays (ex. Thanksgiving, Columbus day), I find that there really isn’t much that’s unique to America. We really don’t HAVE a central culture, much less a unique one.

General Stability:

So, how stable are we? Economically, we faced a huge economic blunder because of how the housing market worked. Many banks essentially signed over mortgages to people who would not be able to pay them back. This caused a recession, as of now, we’re near 10% unemployment, that includes me too. Surely our govt. did something about this right? Well, I believe the Obama administration DID try to do just that, it’s just that it’s such a huge mess, he wasn’t able to pick all of it up, he was essentially handed the keys to presidency, plus a mop and broom.

Now, of course we can still count on congress to help out right? They had just recently passed a bill that declared Pizza a Vegetable because of the amount of tomato sauce on it. Which is funny, not only because pizza is not a vegetable, but also because a tomato is a fruit. And of course we have our beloved free speech right? The thing that was promised to us in our constitution? Well, that’ll soon be censored when the PROTECT IP bill passes, and bill S.978 you’ll be put in jail for 5 years and have a felony on your record when you stream your favorite video game. How wonderful!

Is America the best and freest country in the world? Absolutely not. From what I’ve heard, that’s Norway right now. It’s a good thing those bills haven’t passed yet, otherwise, you wouldn’t be reading any of this.

- Dragos240

Grades

99
95
92
91

In the first time, ever. I got high honors. I will be called down to the office very soon to receive my grades. I’m so very very happy today. I worked hard. And I got what I deserved.

Grades

So this is a quick post. Just an update on life. For the first time ever. I’ll get high honors, that means, all grades are ‘A’s. It took more effort. But honestly, wasn’t too hard. I just had to buckle down and focus. And in at least 2 of my classes, I’m at the top of my class.

Life is looking good right now. I’ll see if I can get into AP and honour classes now. co’o

Thinking very seriously about studying abroad.

I plan on going to 東京大学 (University of Tokyo). I will do whatever it takes to go there. But I wonder if I can. I have a not so great GPA. My AP and honor classes may get me higher, it will give me a 5 for the class. I’m hoping after I do the math that I can do it. I’m really really determined though. I’ll do whatever it takes.

Server

Server is nearly done. Odd crashing glitch that I hope I can fix. Other than that, everything’s smooth and working great.

Brief update.

I have a new site. Not a new blog, just a new site. ugmc.tk. It’s the site for the UG (uberGamers) minecraft server. The server should be up next week or so after everything is set up and I have confirmed it’s stable.

Nearing the end. Life and stuff.

Well,

It’s the end in a lot of senses. Summer, end of the edolas arc, and end of hot hot days (again summer). Usually when this time comes around I feel disappointed. It’s odd, I feel different now. I’m looking forward to school. I want to work. I really do. I’m planning on getting all ‘A’s this year, maybe a few ‘B’s. A bit offtopic, but I hate making acronyms plural, it’s annoying.

The block schedule: So I’ve devised that block schedule. In case I wasn’t too specific about it. There’s 2 parts to my schedule throughout the day, those are the blocks and my priority list. 1 hour blocks during school, and 3 hour blocks during the summer and weekends. I have a priority and todo list, I use this to find out what I’m doing that block, and then I do that thing for the entire block, whether it be 1 or 3 hours. Best part about this, is anything can happen during a block, so if there’s something I didn’t plan, I just do whatever I wanted to do in the next available block.

Sleep: So you know that thing? Polyphasic sleep? Well it’s not going to work right now. It could work if I had a more flexible schedule. But since It’s disallowed in my household and I haven’t a flexible enough schedule, It’s simply not possible for me. Maybe sometime later. Plus I’m getting more done now thanks to my block schedule. Very happy with that result.

Programming: When I have time, I occasionally program. Disappointed with how little I learned this summer, could have done much more.

Japanese: Going for n1. This is something that nears the top of my priority list. I’m dedicating whole blocks per day to this.

Blog and stuff: Well I need to update it a bit more I think. It’s kinda been sitting on my dusty shelf so to speak. Another thing I need to do. Oh well. Will theme it soon I think.
The Blog: I don’t really blog all that much. But that should also be a priority, I should update it a bit more often.

New plans and goals.

Programming is now lower than learning japanese. Right now, I will complete genki in 200 hours. After this I’ll study different words, chat on TheJapanesePage’s chat room, work on tenses and see if they have a ventrilo-like chat so I can practice speaking. My goal: Pass the JLPT N1. This will be very very challenging, but I want to achieve this badly. It may take a few years or so to master. But I hope to do it.

I also have a new block schedule that is MUCH more flexible. One for weekends/summer and one for school days.